Mzade - Only Im Alone (Original Mix)
i have isolated myself for almost three yrs now. The only time i leave my small apartment is to go to dr appointments and too church. i get my granddaughters every other weekend one at a time for a sleepover. I have no friends and my children are grown and have their own lives they really dont spend any time with me anymore. The only time I show signs of life and happiness is when i am with my granddaughters. It was important to me for them to have God in their lives for the simple fact my daughter struggles with the exsistance of God and faith. Her and her boyfriend came along with me at church a few times. my church has a strict policy with our children their and you sign children in and out of sunday school through fingerprint. Since I am mainly the only one that takes them my fingerprints were the only one they had my daughter works alot and is hardly ever off on sundays. Well she attended with me and my oldest granddaughter recently and had a attitude cause she wasnt able to sign the girls into class so she had her prints done and took over what i took very proudly away rom me. Little by little everything is slipping away from me. Most of all the only thing that gave me happiness and peace. Im even told i am not even a good grandmother cause i spoil and show my granddaughters attention. I am considering moving several miles away alone away from everything and everyone that hurts me. Even if it hurts my oldest granddaughter that i raised for the first year and a half of her life. Cause obviously i am ruining her life as well. Talk bout being lonely and alone i have been for quit sometime. I cant stand to be away from my apaprtment for too long i dont feel safe and i feel out of place everywhere elses.
Mzade - Only Im Alone (Original Mix)
Remember though, you are NOT alone in your battles to come or have already:-When your eyes go black paint it white and blink,-When shadows creep up on you, blind them standing with the biggest smile that it even scares the Joker,-And always laugh at the demon that looks at you through the mirror for it is an animal incarcerated in your zoo that only exists to eat and shit while you are more than that.
When you're thinking about the breakup, there can be a lot of sadness and pain around shared memories. Perhaps your life with them was easy and comforting, and imagining being on your own is terrifying. But don't let fear enable you to regress from your decision. It doesn't help you, and they don't deserve to be with someone who only wants to be with them because they don't want to be alone.
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